As I continue on my Journey called Life. I am constantly reminded of God's Amazing Grace. If you look around I'm sure you can see it too. The birds in the air, the crisp breeze on a mid summer's day Or when your feet hit the ground every morning. I am reminded of the many times that God and this grace has set and kept me from doing the unthinkable at the tender age of 15 ...Death by Suicide. You see one can never tell the life altering storms that brewing on the inside of someone and if You are anything like me..You wear a smile like a clown. I planned it all and even attempted the act several times... The excessive consumption of laxatives,an entire bottle of aspirin , and my next step was rat poison...But to God be the Glory I'm still here. My niece intervened and She literally saved my life. Please listen and look for the warning signs and for heavens sake just be a friend without judgement.. It just may safe a life~Nikkie B.
I have earned the RIGHT to be here and I don't care who doesn't like it! I used to feel bad about being blessed and not having countless woes or worrying about struggling financially. I used to live for the validation and/ or recognition that I got from anyone. So when a blessing came my way I never used it for myself because I knew that at the thought of me having anything nice would provoke ridicule. I vividly remember when I purchased a new car and wore designer clothing; I was made to feel less than human by the so-called upper crust in my life. One of them was even bold enough to say to my face, "You still ugly no matter what you TRY to put on". Feeling the sting of rejection I sought comfort in food and horrible people. I dumbed myself down just so I could be accepted by the COOL-Kids. It got to the point where I would give everything that I got to other people simply because they wanted it for themselves. Many times I went without just to appease the greed in others. OH BUT NOT ANYMORE! Life has taught me many things. But the Main lesson that stands out and rings in true: Don't You DARE let anybody make you feel bad because your hard work is paying off .
How many of you know that misery loves company...? And if their life is miserable it's because of the choices they've made. It's time for YOU to stop shouldering the blame for their failures. Honey, life is too short to let ANYONE dull your SPARKLE & SHINE! ~Nikkie B.